A couple of nights ago I was looking through pictures on our camera, organizing them on the computer, and I realized that I have done exactly what I said I
wouldn't do. I've taken fewer pictures of Gracie than I did of Isaac. Not intentionally, by any means. But just as I've been told, I'm finding that it
really is harder, having a toddler running around, to capture every priceless little moment of your second child -- just as you did for the first.
Gracie will be 3 months old this week and I have absolutely NO idea where the time has gone. And suddenly, I feel a sense of urgency to capture everything possible on camera. She is such a precious addition to our family and quite frankly, the most beautiful little girl I have ever seen! (I realize I'm biased, but just look at this face!)
What is it about time that makes us so fearful? Or what do I hate so much about time? Good things can come with time. Healing. Growth. Improvement. But still yet, it feels like my greatest enemy as a mother. It just goes by so fast!
I know that we are sinners in need of grace, created for God's glory. And our job as parents is to help our children
grow up -- to be God-fearing, God-honoring
adults who serve God with all their heart, mind, soul, and strength, and take His Gospel to the nations. So as a mother who understands this, why is it so hard knowing my babies will grow up?
Maybe it's the innocence that we see in our children. Their endless excitement over the simplest things. Their crocodile tears that stop with mommy's cuddles. The fascination we see in their eyes when they are learning something new. The sparkle in their eyes or the sweet, soft pitch of their voices.
A friend stated it well when she said, "I wish I could capture every smile, every giggle, and every cuddle...and keep it forever." Oh, what I would do to freeze time! I would hold them and rub their smooth, soft skin. I would stare at them forever and burn into my memory every soft curve of their faces, their long eyelashes, button noses, porcelain skin, and the color of their lips. I would smile at my baby and watch her face light up. I would talk to my son and listen to his adorable pronunciation of words. I would rock them and sing songs at bedtime. I would play until my heart's content -- I would color, and tickle, and chase, and continuously rebuild a train set, and make pancakes out of play-doh. And while I have these moments now with my children, they'll be over all too quickly and this week has been another realization of that. Time just goes by way too fast.